Originally Posted by
drinkingdinos 
Don't really have a recovery plan. I've been to a few aa meetings but felt really out of place. I've been so sick most of the time I've been sober that I haven't been able to really do anything but lay around. I've only just started feeling better this week really.
I know it sounds bad but I'm really tempted to just say eff it and start drinking again. I can't stop thinking about it.
Originally Posted by
drinkingdinos I don't know how to say no. To alcohol or anything else in my life. Especially alcohol. How do I say no when everything inside of me is screaming for a drink?
A plans not necessarily about AA or not, although I do think you could use more support.
You need to be ready for those moments when drink will be around. You have to have a raft of tools ready to use.
here are some examples of tools:
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...-cravings.html
here's some more:
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...t=101+recovery
You need to make changes in your life and start building a sober life you love so that you have some positive experience of sobriety to counter those moments when you want to say eff it.
You need to examine why you have trouble saying no, and why you're screaming for a drink. 'Because I'm an alcoholic' is not a helpful answer.
Dig deeper...what are you looking for in that drink - to fit in? to escape feelings? to deal with fear?
Basically you'll get out of your recovery what you put in. If you put in very little then chances are you'll drink again...and noone wants that.
Read around - see what other people are doing...find a way that makes sense to you and do it.
Yeah, it's a lot of work and effort - but you're worth it - right?
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