I permanently feel let down. I've been so productive lately. But I haven't achieved.
My latest theatre production is now over...what to do with myself, next....?! Paint a picture..something else arty crafty till the next thing....
But still no sign of anything I really need to make my life have meaning. I'm sick of failing job interviews.
I only drink because I am at a 'loss'. I have no one to love, no one to feel responsible for, no nothing to be entitled to. And I am none of those things to anyone else.