Very sorry that you went through a very bad thing like that.
You're not rambling, you're just chatting with friends here.
I have the same situation, the bar I used to frequent is within walking distance.
That place was my hang out for quite some time. Now it is just a place I walk by when out with my dog.
You
can do this. I am always in awe of the spirit and strength that comes when somebody is determined to change.
I can tell by you words here, you are somebody that will get this under control.
