Arguing with people above all else=tiring
Hey, so just because I don't really know what else to do, I decided to post here again.
So, here's my current situation: in the past few days, since I dropped out of college, I've been spending waaay too much time discussing it with my relatives... and by discussing, I mean: full-blown arguing about it, non-stop. When we're not arguing, we spent most of the time ignoring one another: real healthy.
They just simply refuse to believe something's wrong with me. And of course they're standing strong, thanks to the great back-up of "dr. knows-everything" and "psychologist: it's-definitely-depression". My parents claim I'm just lazy and have now found the perfect excuse to stop studying.
Seriously, I can't talk to ANYBODY and it frustrates me beyond belief. I thought I'd at least get more understanding out of my psychologist, but she's like: it's due to stress, anxiety... And tells me off for coming to this forum, because people lie there, all the time. I'm like: WHAT?!
If you've had serious problems with addiction long enough to come to this forum, then why on EARTH would you lie?! So... what did we learn in yesterday's session: A) Do not seek support, from people who know what you're talking about and therefore might be able to actually give you useful advice. No, just simmer in the black pool of trouble yourself. B) There is nothing wrong with your head, you're just "imagining" things.
Yup, I'm totally imagining that I forget stuff and can hardly pick up new info, cause, you know, that's what I do once in a while, just for the fun of it.
Then she has me even more worried, than I already was, because I said: " It's probably not dementia, though", to which she countered: do you have trouble doing different stuff at once, like when you're cooking? Me: " Uhm... sometimes." She:" Cause that's usually the onset of dementia, but hey... it may be due to stress, so don't worry. Okay, pay up, bye!"
Oh, how wonderful I felt after leaving that practice... After that little visit, I can honestly say I'm doing worse than before, which says a lot.
And I don't know why I'm even typing this, since I have no idea what I'm hoping to reach... A friendly chat perhaps. I've been missing those at home. So yeah, I'm ending my rant here. Thanks for reading and responding, in advance.