At six months sober I started to negotiate with my addiction. "Hey, one night drunk in 180 days is way better than drinking every night," I thought, "I could get drunk every six months, that would be better than 99% sober."
But as it's been mentioned here by other posters, and evidenced many times here on SR in the past few weeks, there is no assurance that "one" night doesn't turn into two, or 2 weeks. Or forever.
There are ways to cope with how you feel right now. That's the whole purpose of recovery. To learn how to get out of our heads without drinking. Hope you choose to stay sober.