Stick to you guns. If you're not ready, then you're not ready and there isn't a doggone thing wrong with that. My H is back from rehab and I in no way shape or form want to lay physical eyes on him and I don't feel one bit guilty for it. We've experienced some traumatic stuff living with our A's over the years -- heck yeah we may not be ready to sit with them and visit. That's ok. You do what is best for you!!