Cohiba, I thhink its your AV speaking when you say that this weekend you didn't make an arse of yourself. Sort of qualifying that the binge didn't end in a huge embarassment, so it wasn't bay bad. I know that I do that ALL the time and it talks me back into drinking since it's really the only 1 out of 5 or 10 binges where I do something really stupid.
Fact is, as I think it is for you, that I feel horrible about having lost control. Maybe nobody else saw it or noticed and there's no consequences there, but I know that I'm upset that I lost control of my drinking and basically poisoned my body.
As far as a plan goes, I'm on Day 32 and my plan has been to check in here daily and then make sure I plan for specific events where I know booze will be involved. I haven't yet wrapped my head around for not not drinking ever again, but I can get my head around not drinking today and not drinking this week, and so that's how I'm planning things out.