Fighting the urge
...to drink. Everything's a trigger and I find myself thinking of how I can leave the house and come back with alcohol and drink off by myself somewhere. My family knows about my problem and they watch me, which ultimately helps keep me honest, but right now I'm feeling desperate to get away on some pretense. This sucks. I fixed myself a coffee so I could drink something else, anything else, and focus on that instead of my cravings.
Anyway, I lurked non-registered for a time before finally joining and then took my time getting 'round to posting. I think the way i'm feeling today finally pushed me to post. I hope this place helps me.