I have all this rolling around in my head too, what if she's better, what if she truly doesn't know why I'm not contacting her and would try harder if she knew? And then I remember her best friend calling me a f*&^ing w&^%$ and all kinds of other names repeatedly, threatening to call my work and the police for "elder abuse" because I hadn't been to her house for 3 days - and then I remember that my AM was there while she was doing this and came to my house a few weeks later like nothing had happened and flippantly told me she was going to dinner with said friend that night. I just have to hold on to what I know is true which is that she will never get it and that life is better without that chaos in my life. But Oh man NWGRITS do I know how tempting it is to think - just one more chance. You're my hero - 3 years. You go girl.
