ReadyAtLast

For me, once I take the first drink I don't want to stop. I CAN stop- it's not like some crazy physical impulse that overtakes me. I just don't want to stop. I get the taste for it and enjoy the feeling it gives me so I want to keep drinking. Then the more I drink the more I want to. If that makes sense

edit- just re-reading this I realize I've written it in the current tense. I've not actually had a drink for 2 years and 4 months so weird how I didn't write in the past tense