From reading your post, I recognized that
you have many caring qualities about yourself.
Another thing I spotted in ur post is where
you said he drank so many days out of the
week.
IF, and I mean a big IF, if he has a problem
with addiction to alcohol or a controlled
substance, then he truly was not honest
or truly was not capable of giving you the
love, care, understanding that you so much
wish for from him.
Addiction is a sickness and illness that
affects mind, body and soul.
As much as it emotionally hurts you
right now, in a way, I see it as a blessing
for you. Someone, whom I believe is watching
over you, the Man upstairs, has someone else
picked out for you. someone whom is deserving
of the love and care you have to give.
This is just my thoughts as I hope you
grow from this experience and be ready
for someone especially chosen for you
to enter your life.
