[QUOTE]I need positive reinforcement more so then the average person. /QUOTE]
Exactly. Geez, zjw this is exactly my trouble. Also had an abusive upbringing. People who haven't really cannot fathom the depths to which it damages a person when you parents, who were supposed to protect and nurture you, torment you in your own personal concentration camp during your formative years for about a couple decades. Kinda leaves a lasting impression. The best part? When you become a f*** up- it's YOUR fault. They had nothin' to do with it. Nope. You're just playin' victim. It's totally good parenting AND normal to terrorize your child with knives and psychologically torment them as well as hit them and berate them constantly and torture their pets in front of them. They did the best they could. Stop being such a sissy.