While, I know what your dealing with, the worst thing that ever happened to me was waking up outside my apartment door with a huge gash on my face... The worst part is like all my neighbors say me and called EMS, I can't even look at them in the eyes im so ashamed. But yeah, that was the worst, but I've done other things not as bad, I surprised I haven't really really hurt myself. This is my 1st real attempt (with support/ meetings etc) and my first full day.