Originally Posted by veron1

This is my very first post. I have never discussed my drinking with ANYONE else but my spouse before. This is hard to talk about; but you all know. I have been alcohol free for 3 weeks and 1 day. Alcohol became the buddy that always understood my sadness and regret over the estrangement of my son and his family and never judged me for 10 years......or so it seemed for most of that time. Lost pay to "being sick", arguments with my husband over and over again, being unavailable after hours to help family and friends when they needed me, weight gain, health issues....have to do something. I did not want to give up altogether; but virtually all my attempts of casual drinking were failures. I want to do this. I feel better; more alert, not reluctant to answer the phone in case someone heard the slur. Lying my way around things is the worst. Coming home from work my brain starts arguing with itself on the pros and cons of stopping at the liquor store for a bottle of wine.
How could I have been basically a non drinker for 47 years then end up here?