Thank you all for being so welcoming. I have to say that I think I'm just being paranoid and that I REALLY CAN do this. About a month ago my husband got bronchitis and neither of us drank for a solid week. He couldn't and I chose not to bc he wasn't able. With that supportive mind frame I had ZERO withdrawal symptoms except being a little grumpy. I think knowing we're at the end of our rope is the scary part. Today I've had 4 vodka shots and one beer. I don't plan on having any more as, physically, I'm doing okay. I don't chase that drunk but I also don't want to suffer at all. I'm so new to all of this. I feel crippled. TIA for any advice. I just want to be free from this vice.