Many have found a program of recovery
as a solution to help them, including myself
to remain sober for a many one days at a
time.
Educating ourselves about our addiction
and its affects on us as individuals is also
important. Learning how a drug, alcohol
affects our in sides, our minds and hearts.
I tried to stop the craziness and insanity
of drinking poison by myself so many times
and failed so many times calling myself a
failure, something is wrong with me, im
stupid, you get the point......when as long
as I had poison in my system and no education
on this drug in my system, it was a wonder
I tried to end my life.
That was 24 yrs ago when family intervened
on me sending me into the hands of those
who were knowledgeable about addiction
so that I could learn how not to drink or
try and kill myself using a program of recovery
to guide me along in my everyday life.
28 days in rehab was a good start for me
to allow the poison to leave my system and
become willing and openminded to learning
about my addiction and to receive healthy
ways to live life without it.
Once I returned home, that safety net was
not there any longer. The safety net of a
secured place where I could not reach for
alcohol when I became restless, irritable,
discontent, hungry, angry, lonely or tired.
I had to use the knowledge and suggestions
of what was taught to me each day so that
I could and would remain sober each day of
my life.
I went to AA meetings because that was
the program that was taught to me in rehab.
I listened, learned, aborbed and applied
what others had learned themselves in
order to remain sober for as many days
as they had. I quietly followed in their
footsteps clinging on quietly each day
until I not only needed to go to meetings
and remain sober but because I absolutely
wanted it.
Here I am 24 yrs sober and yes I still
want to remain sober no matter what.
Yes, life still tried to throw me curve balls
to trick me up and am absolutely grateful
for SR and AA to keep me from wanting to
reach for a quick fix of alcohol that would
only drive me back to the insanity of drinking
or wanting to end my life.
AA and SR are my lifelines to living life
on lifes terms. What was taught to me
over the yrs, I graciously pass on that
knowledge to you and others just beginning
your journey in life without poison or drugs.
The result of remaining sober is being blessed
with living a sober, healthy, happy, responsible,
life enjoying the Promises granted to us as
written in the Big Book of AA I learned 24 yrs
ago.