I am an alcoholic.
I joined over a month ago but have only had a handful of sober nights under my belt. I was able to curb some of my drinking at times, but that's not enough.
I can make it through one day, but come day 2, that voice in my head wins. Not this time. I'm so sick of doing this to myself.
There is no more alcohol in the house and I know it's time. There is plenty of cleaning to keep me busy.
How can it be so difficult to stop something that is clearly so destructive?
I know this is helter skelter, but thoughts/prayers/support would really be appreciated.