Originally Posted by
Pouncer 
When I write this all down, it is really obvious to me that I have not made good choices -- not just with regard to drinking. Why have I been putting up with all things/people like this my whole life?
Echo here. Big time. It seems that with each day that passes, I'm having more and more revelations. Seeing the world and my encounters with it, clear eyed. It saddens me to realize that I allowed a lot of crap to creep into my life -- and that I created a lot of crap for myself.
Alcohol is a crap machine. I know this, and yet, waking up this morning -- seeing things as they are, and they're not great -- the AV wakes up too. Mornings are hard for me. The easy way would be to pour that wine to make myself numb. I'm weary of having to face my life sober. In this case, this morning, harder path is the better path. No wine. No wine. None.