bonbon,
i hope this doesn't mean you don't think you deserve someone nice. you sound scared or nervous. give it a whirl if it seems like a healthy thing to do. you don't owe him anything. shall i mention feel free to take all your baggage with you. i couldn't leave the house without mine, especially with a person that wants to share my company.
good luck girl, give yourself a break and try it for all of us wallflowers.
hugs from sugar