Originally Posted by
scaredofchange 
any advice for dealing with the guilt? the shame? my mind is a mess ;(
Guilt and shame are RESULTS of actions, and are not something you can change or "deal" with. You can deal with the cause of the guilt and shame though, which is drinking. And you can eliminate any further shame or guilt moving forward - which is exactly how you deal with it. Even just one day sober proves through action on your part that you are making positive change. You cannot change what you have done or how you feel about it any more than you can change what the weather was like yesterday.
So look forward...and figure out a plan so you wont' drink today. Because with each day you dont drink, things get better.