no, you're fine, everything seems normal to me...
it's too bad I don't get paid for being a funny guy... that was a good $100 joke right there.
Try looking into AVRT, look at the secular connections forum and the explanation part of it. It may be something up your alley. Have you tried going to an aa meeting or anything like that? It is not healthy to be constantly 'arguing' with yourself over drinking. Usually the drink wins that argument.
What other things have you tried to get over this?
Welcome to the forum.
try this link daz...
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...ined-long.html