((((CM))))
You seem to be a man of strong faith and I know many women that would like to meet a man like you.
You said something about sins of your past haunting you still. Just remember that Jesus came to relieve that burden of sin. I think we block our own forgiveness a lot. To me you seem so real and deep and complete in the Lord...
If I was God I would get you and MG together but, I guess it's a good thing I am not....