Originally Posted by
scaredofchange 
thank you. I know you're right. I'm so scared of change like my name says. the thought of never being able to drink again with family or friends is scary!! not as scary as me blacking out and doing something stupid but my brain won't let me comprehend that even as im writing it.
I feel the same way. So hard to picture life without alcohol. Realistically, it's just those first two or three drinks, where things are lucid and maybe a bit of anxiety goes away. But it almost never stops there and winds out with blackouts, which the shame and guilt take a long time to recover from.
I'm sort of just getting over mine which was about 3 weeks ago and my AV is kinda saying that drinking again in the future will be fine. I need to keep reminding myself that I'm not really quitting drinking, I'm quitting hangovers and blackouts.