Hi, i have a drinking problem.
Hi, i have a drinking problem.
Was doing great... Hadn't drank more then a couple beers since dec 17th. Then last night I had an IPA, then two, then three, then 4, then got two six packs to go. Finished one at home. Stayed up till 4am... Posting videos to Facebook and messaging people with things I shouldnt message people with. Bought cigs and smoked em for the first time since December. Just bad decisions all around. Fun while I was doing it but just stupid stupid stupid. I need to stop, and I need to remember this feeling a week from now when I say to myself, one beer is ok.
Woke up late for work... Just feel like **** physically and mentally
Woke up late for work... Just feel like **** physically and mentally
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I sympathize completely! I drank A LOT on Tuesday night (again) :-( and spent the entire day yesterday hungover and feeling like total crap! I felt so hopeless and desperate. So many people gave me encouraging messages on here and said they believed in me and it helped.
I changed my recovery plan and re-committed. All we can do is start over. Just hang in there. We can do this. You can do it!!!
"You haven't failed until you stop trying".
Xo
I changed my recovery plan and re-committed. All we can do is start over. Just hang in there. We can do this. You can do it!!!
"You haven't failed until you stop trying".
Xo
Until that last drunk. Truth revealed. In the grip of a horrendous hangover, I vowed to get sober.
And did. Haven't had a drop of alcohol since Sept 4, 2010.
Good luck.
I can strongly relate. When we start drinking again, it progresses rapidly. I started drinking again thinking I could moderate after several weeks of sober time. I was a craft beer person too. It was first a beer, then 2 beers, and then 4 beers. After several nights of doing this, I realized I couldn't pick up again and had been deluding myself that I could moderate. Some days I think I was lucky I caught myself. It sounds like you're going through the same thing, but the good thing is this experience can solidify your sobriety.
Ah, the delusions of moderation!!! We have all had them.
True recovery can only happen when we finally reach that moment when we, once and for all - never to go back, realize and accept that we cannot moderate. It is a lifesaving moment.
When we slip or relapse, there is really only one good and viable option; recommit to sobriety; examine what went wrong; put a plan into place that will help us avoid the situation or mindset that brought us to the slip; shore up the holes in our plan and MOVE FORWARD.
You can do this, scaredof. There is no doubt.
True recovery can only happen when we finally reach that moment when we, once and for all - never to go back, realize and accept that we cannot moderate. It is a lifesaving moment.
When we slip or relapse, there is really only one good and viable option; recommit to sobriety; examine what went wrong; put a plan into place that will help us avoid the situation or mindset that brought us to the slip; shore up the holes in our plan and MOVE FORWARD.
You can do this, scaredof. There is no doubt.
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Join Date: Jan 2015
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Was doing great... Hadn't drank more then a couple beers since dec 17th. Then last night I had an IPA, then two, then three, then 4, then got two six packs to go. Finished one at home. Stayed up till 4am... Posting videos to Facebook and messaging people with things I shouldnt message people with. Bought cigs and smoked em for the first time since December. Just bad decisions all around. Fun while I was doing it but just stupid stupid stupid. I need to stop, and I need to remember this feeling a week from now when I say to myself, one beer is ok. Woke up late for work... Just feel like **** physically and mentally
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Join Date: Jan 2015
Location: omaha Ne
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Don't think of it as failure, think of it as learning experience. You are human and as humans we make mistakes. That's how we grow and learn. But it does matter how you handle that mistake. I was sober for almost a year a couple years back. On my anniversary to my husband I had two glasses of wine. Just two..... but that two glasses made me feel like a failure and in turn led to another long binge. In part that is why I do not agree with AA. Just because you slip doesn't mean that the month sober accounted for nothing. You are a work in progress. WE all are and will be in everything that we do for the rest of our lives. Keep going.
When we slip or relapse, there is really only one good and viable option; recommit to sobriety; examine what went wrong; put a plan into place that will help us avoid the situation or mindset that brought us to the slip; shore up the holes in our plan and MOVE FORWARD.
You got this scaredofchange!
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