Cecilia I'm sorry you are feeling this way. The best thing you can do for yourself tonight is stop drinking, drink as much water as you comfortably can and go to bed. We have all been where you are now.
Venecia's suggestion of talking to a doctor is one I endorse.
As for SR posts not being " real hugs" if I may paraphrase Francis Pharcellus Church ....
Yes, Cecilia, those SR hugs are real. They exist as certainly as love and generosity and devotion exist, and you know that they abound and give to your life its highest beauty and joy.