Cecilia, I am sorry to hear that you're drinking tonight. What you do with your life, what you want to accomplish, whether you want to stay sober or not, is all up to you and you alone. We can't do that for you.
One of the things that helps me here, is people here help me understand alcoholism and make it so I can manage it myself better since I can learn from them. It also gives myself a virtual support system that I feel accountable towards. I think that is all it can be.
I don't know all of your history, other than you have had 7 years of sobriety, but it sounds like you need to reach out and connect with others. Why not volunteer, go to AA (or whatever group you have interest in), join a club of people for a hobby you enjoy, or even just pick up a hobby? You'll meet lots of people that way.