Originally Posted by
knowthetriggers 
...I felt trapped almost like a ton of bricks were on my chest....
I think I even had a couple of panic attacks at first, it's been a while & it seems foreign to me now, but I remember that pressure on my chest, the shallow breathing & racing pulse.
I also found that I had to consciously stop myself from going Codie on someone else - like trying to hurry everyone along or getting frustrated if a friend I was with wanted to add another stop to our activities... "Wanna grab lunch?" should be a simple, non-confrontational question, right? When I heard myself sighing deeply, answering people in short, rude tones or being harder on DD than I normally would, I got a eyeful of my own behavior. Pushy, controlling, obsessed... gross.
