i'd love to live off the grid in a cabin, be self-sufficient... somewhere in the depths of the wild far from civilisation; i don't feel like i belong to this urban sprawl, all this engine grease and petrol and oil and condensed bodies packed in salivating over possessions and material wealth, it's like it's all clinging to my skin and it's lurid and suffocating. i've looked at land in the scottish highlands, though.
but if that's not possible... and it's difficult in the uk; the wilderness is very small, and i can't get far enough away from people to recognise the space... i want to publish a graphic novel. my art and writing is reasonably developed but i need to work on a few aspects before i can establish an actual book, and i gotta get sober before i can do that. i am holding onto that. it's a massive driving force.