Hi.
This is a part of the disease as I was also self centered and functioned as if alcohol was my best and closest friend. I could only stop when I was sick and tired of being sick and tired.
For you I suggest the forum Friends and Family on this site and also eyeball meetings of Al Anon who some of my closest friends attend and I refer to as my Black Belt family extension. Get used to the fact that you probably won’t like all they have to say but they usually hit the bulls eye.
BE WELL