I do remember posting how much I hated alcohol. You are all so right, I am only thinking about the good parts. I am just feeling so miserable and down right now. It is odd to miss something I hated. I hated the increased anxiety, shaking hands, fuzziness and nausea in the morning. Having to drink in the morning just to feel better.
At this point, I just want to feel normal without ever turning to alcohol again. I honestly don't have a strategy of how I am going to do that; but I am just taking it one day at a time.