I am his second love,
I am an alcoholic, married to a drinking alcoholic. When we both drank I thought I was his first love. When I quit drinking I realized I was his second love. Everything in his life revolves around his drinking. This is so strange to me. I guess it was always like this, but when I was drinking too, I did not see it. We can't do anything in the evenings, because that is his drinking time. We can't do anything in the mornings, because he is to shaky. I find I do more and more on my own, because he is always busy with his first love. I am coming to terms with this. I thought I would share for others who find themselves in the same place, or maybe those who go on drinking hurting the ones that love them so much. Another good reason to never look back. Being sober has given me a life that is so much better, but it has also brought up some feelings that have been hard to deal with. Thanks for letting me rant. I know you all are always here for me. Big hugs