It's really good to feel heard, I feel really worthless and unimportant right now. I don't want to keep drinking, but I'm scared of not drinking, like I'm shaking right now and I don't know what I should drink or how much especially cause I drank so much this weekend. I'm worried I've done some serious damage like my body and mind feel so battered right now. I couldn't get down the stairs on Monday. When I came back I was hiding under my duvet for two days trying to ride it out but I got so bad like everything hurts.