I've actually tried meetings. different types. they dont work for me. my 'safe' evening was indeed safe. it was a geeky boards game night where the most extreme thing consumed may have been some japanese sweets haha
I had a good talk with my bro about a long term treatment centre. It sounds perfect. except for 1 thing. and that is it is a faith based program which i would have issues with. tho im so desparate i havent ruled it out.