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Old 03-02-2015, 10:23 AM
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Alcoholic and Benzo user

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New here...you can call me Felo!
Just been referred for dual diagnosis treatment but not sure yet what that might entail.?.
I'm a binge drinker who also uses benzos when withdrawing.
I get withdrawal symptoms after just one day drinking and have had seizures.
Alcoholics run in my family so I do believe in the illness theory.
No other drugs have ever interested me.
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Old 03-02-2015, 10:33 AM
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Welcome!

I'm glad you found us and posted.

Since you've had seizures and get withdrawal symptoms after one day without alcohol, I hope that you will talk to your dr about stopping drinking. I also believe that alcoholism is a disease and not a character defect.
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Old 03-02-2015, 10:44 AM
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Welcome Felo, you will find a lot of support and understanding here at SR. Glad to see that you are seeking help, it's a great decision you should be proud of.
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Old 03-02-2015, 10:56 AM
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Welcome to the Forum Felo!!
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Old 03-02-2015, 11:00 AM
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Hiya Felo,

Good luck, you'll find SR a great place
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Old 03-02-2015, 11:01 AM
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Originally Posted by Anna View Post
Since you've had seizures and get withdrawal symptoms after one day without alcohol, I hope that you will talk to your dr about stopping drinking.
Hi Anna,
My dr and community support worker know exactly whats going on and so do my family. Only thing I need to get checked is I'm having problems swallowing food, its only ever after a binge for about a week. Food just gets stuck and yesterday a bit of blood came back up with the food. I've had the problem swallowing after a binge for time but never the blood. I'm making it sound worse than it is I think...but will definitely have it checked at some point this week. If I can't get hold of my community worker I'll book gp before the end of week.
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Old 03-02-2015, 11:31 AM
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Seizures and blood coming out with food getting stuck sounds pretty life threatening to me.

But I'm no doctor.....
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Old 03-02-2015, 12:42 PM
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No seizures this time...as I tapered and used benzos
Only mild symptoms - anxiety nausea and night sweats and saw my gp end of last week who was not worried this time. I even managed to exercise yesterday.
Not a problem eating food today either and I did try get hold of my community worker and was planning on telling her but she didn't return my call. Tomorrow I think she might be coming round. If not I will book a doctors appointment.
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Old 03-02-2015, 12:48 PM
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Try a doc that does NOT give benzo's for alcohol detox. Not easy as it has been SOP forever. That would be a good start. You're in the UK where tapering from alcohol with alcohol is done regularly. Maybe you can find a detox center that will help you with Supervised inpatient taper with nutrition. Get to a doc either way. Blood coming up is a bad sign.
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Old 03-02-2015, 01:10 PM
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Sorry, should of clarified. my doc does not prescribe them. I buy them online.
My doc and community worker are just waiting for the addiction unit to get involved but they check on me for my mental health mostly. I am on antipsychotics and an antidepressent and both of them lower seizure threshold.
I cannot wait for the addiction specialist/dual diagnosis to get involved.
I would really like rehab.
Seem to be in a catch 22 where services to help me get socialising and a job don't want to be involved but being isolated is making my mental health bad. Same logic applied when i technically died on a psych ward whilst on arms reach, so they discharged me (long story). Supported living said I was too risky and so I got put in a normal house. im trying to help myself and really dont want to drink.
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Old 03-02-2015, 02:32 PM
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Welcome Felo - I hope you can get hold of your community worker. If not I'd consider the ER - trouble swallowing and blood is not something to take lightly.

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Old 03-03-2015, 08:07 AM
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Well today I got hold of my community worker who is coming tomorrow.
I couldn't get a doc appt but they said she would call me. I have really bad reception and got a voicemail and immediately returned the call but got told she would call back. No luck so far. I'm not too concerned. I've eaten plenty of food with no problems today and am way to scared to attempt to drink/dont want to anyway.
Not feeling to anxious today and haven't used any benzos. Going socialising later - somewhere that doesn't sell booze so no concerns there. This is kind of usual for me. Its when i forget how ill i've felt and have emotional trigger i get in hot water.
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Old 03-03-2015, 10:07 AM
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Red face Try an AA meeting

Hi. You mentioned that you were going out socializing in a "safe" place. Since you know you shouldn't drink, a really great place to both socialize and learn more about alcoholism is at an AA meeting. Try that and you may find the help and support you need. Good luck in your future.
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Old 03-03-2015, 03:22 PM
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I've actually tried meetings. different types. they dont work for me. my 'safe' evening was indeed safe. it was a geeky boards game night where the most extreme thing consumed may have been some japanese sweets haha
I had a good talk with my bro about a long term treatment centre. It sounds perfect. except for 1 thing. and that is it is a faith based program which i would have issues with. tho im so desparate i havent ruled it out.
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Old 03-04-2015, 04:33 AM
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Congrats. Putting up with the godtalk could be worth the medical supervision. As long as they don't treat seizures with holy water you should be ok. Some b1, b12 and folate I'm sure helped me a great deal through WD's in the beginning.
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Old 03-04-2015, 08:52 AM
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Ah no its not detox its rehab. for like 1-2 yrs. daily prayers and focus on why lack of christian faith is the root to all addiction would be my issues.
Got some lansoprazole today and my doc put the frightners in me saying if i drink again i could die if something bursts and i bleed a lot. which i knew about from watching documentaries about alcoholism. but the depressed/self destruct part of me thinks thats a lil like giving someone who's suicidal a gun to hold. ok maybe im exagerating, im sure its a horrible way to die and im 3 days sober and no cravings. just wish my mood would lift

oh and i found out today that my community nurse is leaving. great. start all over with someone else. blurgh
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Old 03-05-2015, 09:47 AM
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Think I may have found a rehab that is not faith based. And it also involves working on a farm going to call tomorrow
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Old 03-05-2015, 09:49 AM
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Hi Felodese its nice to meet you

Good luck with the call
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Old 03-06-2015, 08:44 AM
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hi soberwolf

i phoned them. it was interesting, some good points and some not. i need to think more and talk with my addiction worker about it which wont be for a couple of weeks.
i met my new community nurse today. turns out i already know her. i know the job doesnt pay well but you can always tell the difference between the ones who want to really help people and the ones who just do it for a job. i do appreciate any help but im not sure we will be a succesful pairing and theres nothing worse than not being able to open up to your worker. ohwell.
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