Hi daisy, I can relate to your situation a lot. It looks like alcohol always been a issue in my family either if we grew up in it or we consume it. I am glad you are here.
Life is a strange thing when you do damage to yourself and others because of alcohol. Its going to take some time, but if you want to see your kids and get your life together. Keep going to AA and keep yourself sober.
I am still in my early sobriety, march 4th will be my 30 day milestone and since I been sober my husband and I been getting along so much better. It also helps him to understand the disease so he goes to Ala-non for himself but helps us in the long run.
Good luck and welcome to SR