Thank you, Lexie! Yes, I do hate to cause pain, but I keep reminding myself that he WILL be ok and this is the best possible scenario for me to close this chapter once and for all (he has a very tight support network and a lot of family nearby).
I find myself mourning a bit. I think when I broke up the first time, it was with the understanding that it is more of a break. Now it's final and if I am honest with myself, I am a bit heartbroken.