Ladyscribbler, I so relate. Yes, I'm worn down, depressed and just really suffering from total inertia with the daily toll this is taking on me and not being able to even respond as I know it will escalate everything that much more. It's so hard to live in silence constantly and watch everything you do because you know it will lead to criticism and yelling. And the lack of energy from being broken down - how I relate to that. I used to really love simple things and now everything is just going through the motions. I'm glad you got out. BiminiBlue and LexiCat, thank you for your words of advice. I know there is a better life if I just pick myself up and get out of this mess.