Hey Dave,
You may just have to choose the lesser of the two evils. You could drink and feel better for a minute, but you would have the super sad crash of knowing you just blew 61 days -- surely the hardest part you will have to go through getting used to being sober. You may not feel the greatest right now but how are you going to feel tomorrow if you do the deed? Clearly the best thing for you is to hang tough. Lean into it a little. You will not regret it -- one day.