Thank you all! I agree about moderation it never worked so why talk myself into thinking it would after a few months....crazy. I feel like I'm starting back at zero with no control again.
Just wondering, what are some ways you have told people "no thank you" to drinking? Because at this point I feel like I need to make some reason up so people will stop bugging me. I'm not at the point to say..."hey guys, I have an issue with drinking so no thank you" but with confidence and time maybe I could?
I'm sitting at my desk, pounding water feeling like crap right now because I'm hungover and feeling low but you all are making my day so much easier. Respect to you all and your life goals