EGNYC, yes, it's pretty funny! But it did stop the immediate danger to me! So, AA does work. LOL. I wasn't in denial, I knew. I always knew. My addictive voice was just too loud for AA. I've always said AA is a good program. It helps a lot to get ones life back in order. Working the Steps is very useful. I needed a little more to defeat the addiction.
Today, I am mostly peaceful and I am truly sober. I had some competent therapy and made use of the tools. I've been through some bad times sober. I had a lot to deal with but I made it through the last over seven years sober!
AO, sorry to derail your thread. I hope you wake up and feel a bit better. See if you can find a referral from the social services at the hospital specific to this crisis and get some short term help until you can find a more qualified therapist. Stay sober. I really recommend rereading the Rational Recovery book and web pages. You can do this.
Do not let the addictive voice BS you!
Love from Lenina