Originally Posted by
Axiom 
Alright y’all I am in!
Alcohol will kill me but only if I drink it and I am sick of being afraid!
So here I go. Down the rabbit hole. I am going to a SMART meeting tonight, ordering RR, picking up yoga, exercising more, spending a lot of time with family, checking into SR daily, going to therapy, reading about the medical side of addiction, sober MeetUp groups and living life to its fullest.
I want to want AA but I just don’t. I don’t feel the connection and feel better on the days I don’t go to meetings.
Hi Axiom, welcome here, good to see you posting here. If you look at the excerpted sections of your post, you will see what I feel are the salient points. The answers to your questions are there.
I think your plan is sound because it underlies your commitment to sobriety and to your future. Do it all, live your life fully, reject any possibility of failure and demand success. That will do it.