How are things, Briar? Did you get into the outpatient program?
I want so badly to drink last night. I was feeling crappy, overall, and alone for the evening parenting, which included driving each kids to sports practice, one ended at 8, the other began at 8, two different places. I am magical. Getting each to and picked up on time, lol. These many trips to and from school gyms took me past a little last ditch wine store no less than 4 times, and a more upscale one at least once. Ugh. I drove on by, and had a few Dove Promises(chocolate) when I came home. I feel better this morning, but an just flat out exhausted this week. I don't know why that tired, crappy feeling makes me want to drink when i really need some good sleep.
It was helpful that I have Lent and good ole Catholic guilt helping me along. What will I do once Lent is over is the question. But with 6 solid weeks under my belt, I hope my last drink will be far enough behind me that I have a clearer vision moving forward.