I am glad you came right back and posted, too, ChickChick. Make this a tiny blip on your radar screen; keep your feet firmly planted on that long beautiful, fulfilling road to sobriety and recovery.
Drinking just simply doesn't work for us; someday that fact will be an acceptable part of who you are; you will truly be okay with it.
So much of this process is peeling away the layers of our alcoholic-skin, examining and shedding each damaged layer until we find the healthy layer from which we can confidently grow our sober-skin and be perfectly comfortable with its fit.