Steps forward or backwards?
My addict BF finally admitted ALL the wrong doing he's been hiding from me... Lying, cheating, drugs, drinking, etc.. and that's it been going on for around a year. He's very ashamed of himself and embarrassed. Says he doesn't want to become a joke to me. Even said some very hurtful things to me ( I think more out of his insecurities and his shame )
I've just had to go get STD testing, as he recommended it to me due to his behavior. I won't get the results back until next week.
He has deleted all his old drug buddies, and I feel that's a step in the right direction. He says it's best we just remain friends for now (and as hard as that is to hear, I know deep down it's the truth). Said that he was going to ask me to marry him before he got hooked again, because to be honest, I thought he didn't even care about me ( and I know they can't care while using ). He was clean and had been for awhile when we met.
He's suicidal right now, full of self hate, self harm (choking himself, etc)... Admit that he has been using meth, and that's something he's never done in the past... Says he's trying to get better, but I'm scared. Just pray for him, because that's all I know to do anymore.
I don't know if this is a step forward or back for him?