Daveanomie
Our disease wants us to take the easier, softer way.
Whatever is keeping you from AA meetings, I would ask God (even if you don't believe in one) to help you face those fears - and go. If you can walk through that fear, and keep seeking out a Solution in AA, you cannot fail.
I like meetings where people talk about the Solution and how they're actually doing it. If you're anything like me, you don't have time to waste.
Courage, my friend.
Those fears are only false anyway, even if they seem real.