I am alone for the first time in my life. I Was with my a for 34 years. I was 15 when we started dating. So with my family for the first 15 years. Now alone at 50.
I don't think there was anyone more afraid then me. You do what you have to do to survive. When your life is for shxt with an addict you have no other choice but to put your big girls pants on and deal with it. Sorry but no other answer to be any kinder. I chose to survive, by myself.
Its really not bad getting to know myself. What I like and want to do. Not all the other stuff people in my life want To do. I need to do a lot of work on myself to become strong and healthy. I am Taking time just for that.