Curmudgeon, Electrical Engineer, Guitar God Wannabe
Join Date: Jan 2012
Location: Where the mighty arms of Atlas hold the heavens from the Earth
Posts: 3,403
Well, of course you're in love with him. He's your husband.
However, as you've noted, there are children in the mix, and being around an alcoholic isn't good for them.
I'm glad you've started Al Anon so that you can have support in person. As time goes on and you learn more, you will arrive at a point where you can make the best decisions you can, both for yourself and your children.