Why can't I leave?
Just have to get this out. When will it be enough for me. When will I hit that point where the damage can't be forgiven. My husband is an alcoholic and I'm in love with him. It's so conflicting. He is not a nice drunk and he isn't trust worthy when he drinks. Then sober he is so different. And he doesn't drink every day. He's a functioning alcoholic and so it's not a black and white situation. We have kids, a lovely life and then this awful 6 week pattern of his binge and crazy behavior. It's a cycle of abuse and I'm aware it's a pattern. I just started going to al anon so maybe it will help. I guess I need to except this is how it will be or leave because I deserve better. It's so hard. My poor daughters. I wouldn't want them to go threw this ever.