Triggerless Drunk
I'm on day 8 of sobriety.
When I'm able to keep busy (at work or when my wife is home or when my son is playful) I am able to avoid thoughts of drinking. But in just about every other quiet moment all I can do is think about drinking.
I think something that I am struggling with is the realization that when I was drinking.... I didn't have any "triggers" that would cause me to drink.
I drank every single day. And drank a LOT.
Had a rough day at work? Got drunk.
Had a great day at work? Got drunk.
Had car trouble? Got drunk.
Leased a brand new car? Got drunk.
I'm sure that everyone that has found their way to this site believes they have it worse than everyone else.... but at the moment I almost wish I had "triggers" to avoid.
I guess the only thing I have going for me as I stay sober is I anticipated going through absolute hell for the foreseeable future. So far, that is on track.