Thank you everyone.
I've read the "at least a year" statements in other readings I've done too. I suppose it's just hard thinking in terms of that. I know she really cares for me and she isn't close to anyone else minus select parts of her family. So I feel terrible having to tell her we can't continue on.
She's sent me letters and I've written her back too, which also makes it harder. I was feeling fine until the other day when things just snapped and now I feel like I'm back to square one in attempting to fully move on. I really don't know what else to say I suppose.